First of all, Im not gonna mention who's this about, do not send me messages asking. I know the girl who's that about drops my @ but I don't want any more drama, I just wanna show my side to people she told bad things about me.
Theres this girl that used to be my best friend but we split ways around 4 months ago. I haven't talked anything about it publically but she has, apparently dropping my name to anyone who asked for it and I feel it's so unfair how she portrays me as a villain behind my back to my moots and followers.
I moved to Japan and had to build my life from zero and our friendship was only online so I didn't have as much time to spend with her and our groupchat but I still tried to while also focusing on my new friends in Japan. Unfortunally around the same time she got diagnosed with an illness, it's not a terminal disease but it is something she has to change her lifestyle for. I felt bad for her and expressed my condolences but I didn't have much time to call and spend time as we used to due to my new work and time zone difference that was almost exactly opposite.
Then I posted stories with my friends from Japan and she started ghosting me. She would avoid talking with me while messaging on our groupchat but when I confronted her she assured me its fine. I thought maybe she's going through a hard time with her personal life and needs space so I respected that and thought she will reach out to me when she feels comfortable.
Apparently that's what made her upset. After around a month (?) of ghosting me and posting shady things hinted to be about me for no reason, and me asking our mutual friend if she's okay and is she mad at me for something that she doesn't talk to me (the answer was "no, she just has personal issues") she unfollowed me and removed as follower and when I asked why did she do that she answered that I only care about myself. I was confused as fuck. Later she explained that I don't have time for her or our groupchat and I only care about my new friends in Japan, calling them slurs and insulting their appearance because I posted a drawing of my friend but I didnt draw her or other members of the groupchat recently.
*side note, I did draw us just 2 weeks before that and sent her?
Which, the whole situation is INSANELY immature. But anyways I explained to her that I know shes having a hard time but a lot has changed in my life too and it's simply hard for me to find the right time but I will try harder and i offered to call her at the day she has time which for me was 5am.
So the day to call has come and the same day I posted a photo with my IRL friend that the girl was insulting before. (Reminder, they never talked, she didn't do anything except being my new friend). Sooo I waited until 5am, I had job at the morning but then when I wanted to call her, I noticed Im blocked, lol.
I went on our groupchat's profile and noticed she removed her highlight and posts so naturally I understood she quits and no longer wants to be my friend and so I removed her from the groupchat.
She clearly doesn't wanna be my friend anymore and cut me off so I accepted that and decided to end it from my side too.
Then it all broke loose. She got mad how dare I remove her, she can talk to whoever she wants but I said it's weird she blocked the leader and 1 of 4 members total and she's been treating me like shit, ghosting me just cuz I happen to have other friends too, calling them slurs, calling me a self observed narcissist because I think she couldn't stand the fact that while she had a horrible time I was meeting new friends and made a boyfriend.
But the thing is:
I DON'T HAVE TO SUFFER WITH YOU TO SUPPORT YOU.
Multiple times I told her I'm here for her whenever I can, even if I have other friends IRL now she is still my #1 bestie and she can talk to me and I will listen but I think seeing me post stories of my new life in Japan was feeling unfair and disingenuous to her.
Anyways after that she just sent me 1 message to fuck me and my "ugly friends" and posted stories about a "fake friend" and betrayal, started telling MY moots and followers spilling my name about how narcissistic I am and even TELLING TOTAL STRANGERS ABOUT MY SEXUAL LIFE ??? One girl DMed me that shes going crazy and dms people details about my sex life under "I was just worried about her safety" disguise. It was insane. I felt so angry everytime someone DMed me she said smth wild about me to them but I didn't talk about it outside my private friends and moved on but now, I just feel like it's unfair that she spreads stuff about me. I don't want any conflict or contact with her, I just wanna vent, this blog is kind of like a journal to me, I just rarely post on public.
In the groupchat we had, there was me, her, and 2 mutual friends, X and Y. At the time she started ghosting me, her and X got really close, posting about being besties etc so I felt relieved she is not alone and maybe X is able to understand and give her support I can't and she'll reach out when she's better. Apparently the entire time, she was telling X about her real feelings towards me, being upset I don't reach out and care enough when she doesn't respond and everything that bothered her about me which I had no clue of. Me on the other hand was telling Y that I'm worried she's mad at me for something because she's ghosting me but says everything is okay.
At the end X stood on the other girl's side because she believes the diagnosis and hard private situations partially excuse the irracional behaviour, while me and Y believe there's no excuse to treating your friend badly, ever. If that happens, u should just apologize and not do it again.
And that split the ways between us. X wanted to hear my side too but we couldn't catch up and I believed since she was with the girl knowing her feelings towards me live, it will be hard to see my pov, I hope this post will help her see it. I also felt like X was lowkey blaming me for moving on too easily and fast hinting that my friendship wasn't deep, which hurt me because it's not true, I just have this mechanism where I really try to isolate myself from people that hurt me. I also felt kind of accused from the girl itself that I cut her off so easily. After she blocked me? 😭
I honestly don't hold anything towards the girl anymore, Im just sad it ended this way cause she was the best friend I had and I wish she didn't see me as bad as she potrays me now back when we were friends.
I just hope people whom she told bad things about me see the full picture.
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| *idk why she often mentions I messed up the calling day, I just said I cant talk long cuz I have work at Sunday and have a busy schedule but I stayed up at Saturday, when the drama happened |
